how sad..

when i think about it...

i barely have dreams nowadays.. well i can't seem to remember ANY

..too little sleep kiwi =(

oh em gee.

i just watched effy's episode of skins season 4

and the ending was just WRONG

FREDDIE ISN'T MEANT TO DIE THAT'S JUST SO SAD =((((((

and i thought, oooh maybe there's like a twist and freddie actually beat up the creepy psychiatrist guy!

but then i went on the skins page and they have a memorial for freddie's character!! =(

CAN'T BELIEVE THEY ACTUALLY KILLED HIM OFF. SOOO SADDDDD =(((((





ahh he's such a beaut ♥ ♥

& hello urban outfitters.

hi world.

& some recent ceramic work.

anything to occupy me from doing these design sheets...


i slip casted a ball, then randomly cut into it and made some kinda mini flowerpot thing. well i imagined it to be a flower pot.


but then it broke so here's my second attempt! =] (the hole is where you would water the plant)



my heart puzzle =] for my momma's day?
but can you see that a piece broke?! =(




& my awesome paint splatter plate! =D extremely proud of thissss, hope no one breaks it/it doesn't break in the kiln >_<


lol and check out my amazing clay 'vinyl' toy

i named it after sevak! =D

so tempted

to pierce my conch RIGHT NOW.. AHH DYING FOR A PIERCING THEREEE


no that is not my ear! just reference for those who don't know where the conch it =]

lol garhay just read this and thought i typed "so tempted to pierce my crotch"

puck it

ok, i'm back into wanting a tattoo phase

and desperately want it NOW

neck AND chest =D

i miss you so much garhay lee ♥

yummm

new pot of mascaraaaaa

LOVEE, LOVE IS LIKE A STUBBORN YOUTHHH

THAT YOU'D RATHER JUST DENY!

I'M WALKING ON A BROKEN ROOF

WHILE I'M LOOKING AT THE SKYY

IT'S ALL FALSE LOVE AND AFFECTION

YOU DON'T LIKE ME YOU JUST WANT THE ATTENTIONN..

YEAH IT'S ALL FALSE LOVE AND AFFECTION

YOU DON'T LIKE ME YOU JUST WANT THE ATTEEEENTIOOONNNN

♥ ♥

i really want to watch alice in wonderland at the imax! but its all pretty much booked up!! X"(

completely obssessed.

the bedroom is so cleaaaaan

so so clean that it makes me want to jizz all over it. (Y)

also, whoever lived in my room at dg before; you are a complete dumbass, because of you, i'm a lot richer than i was yesterday (Y)

momma bought down a load of foooooood =D and cute snacks from hong kongg.

went to the steak restaurant in london bridge. oishiii ^^

it's been like 5 hours and i still have a seriously huage food baby.

♥

funfilled lunchtime with flangela to the piercing parlour and rough trade

hummingbird bakery!

yuuummm can't wait to have these in 12 hours with sevakkk =D

i don't know

that 'thing' we had,

i think it's gone,

temporarily?

i don't know.

i asked my friend for a carousel

& my other friend sends me this



how considerate =]

AND



IF ONLY ♥♥♥

yay.

you're so beautiful!



this was also on sale for 12.50! thought it was cute & something different =]



that's a new shirt too from uniqlo! £9.99! bargain.



mother is totally going to destroy me when she finds out...

assessment part 2

tuesday 16th, 10.30 a.m

assessment part 1 - i was shitting myself for this, thinking oh fuck im totally gonna get referred if i dont finish this, i was at my sisters desperately trying to finish work, bawling my eyes out days before, stressed to the max, and then i went with most work finished... and it was fine!

part 2? for some reason i just don't give a flying fuck, i have the most unfinished work in the class, one project doesnt even exist! only a few photographs of development but thats it. and the current project im working on? oh god dont get me started, its just basically bollocks.

im pulling out of progress 2010, at least my ucas is sent off, knowing me if i didnt apply for it i still wouldnt have a personal statement done, but interviews for progress start next monday, and i definately wont have a good portfolio for then so why bother when i know im going to fail!

and blates going to get referred tomorrow, yet i don't careee!! i just haven't done any work in the last hour! arg i've literally just been sitting here!

=( where did all your motivation go kiwi? you use to be amazing. now you just suck.

all i think about is shopping T___T

if i get through all this portfolio shit, i'm going to treat myself to these..



and as if i havent already bought enough shit... i spent like £140 in mac the other day......

arggh.

cannot wait to move out of this stupid flat.

SO FUCKING ANNOYING.

why am i so unmotivated?

is it cause i desperately don't want to study in product/three dimensional design.

i told myself i'd do so much work this weekend. and i didn't do ANY of it. what the hell, its almost 3 and i still don't have any research for the 6876 project. WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON WITH MEEEE =(

and then there's other thingsssss, that can't be shared on here... ARGH JUST THROW IT ALL INTO THE RIVER THAMES!

ha too cuteeee

desperately want this men's uniqlo UT.. XD

hello hooker boots XD

on sale for £25, the picture doesn't really do them justice cause they look like a pair of hooker boots with that massive platform XD but a friend of a friend has them and i saw her wearing them the other day and theyre soo nice! ^__^ so i was randomly browsing schuh, came across them, on sale, in my size! obviously a sign to buy them..... XD

these are kinda nice toooo...

the first pair are £60 and the second £70, ive tried the second ones on before but in suede and they were really nice! but that was when they were full priced so i didn't bother even trying to beg mother to buy them for me XD but in the pictures the suede ones look kinda tacky so ive moved onto the leather ones.. but now?! which ones?!? ive tried the first pair on too but it was so long ago i can't remember which one was comfier.. and i'm way too lazy to hit central/no time to hit central T___T

FOUR UCAS CHOICES SORTED.

central saint martins product design 

central saint martins ceramic design

london college of communication graphic product innovation

camberwell college of arts three-dimensional design

and probably kingston university product design & furniture